Βιβλία σαν το «Η μυστική ιστορία»

Τι σκέφτεσαι, Έιμι; Αυτή είναι η ερώτηση που έκανα πιο συχνά κατά τη διάρκεια του γάμου μας, έστω κι αν την έκανα από μέσα μου και όχι στο πρόσωπο που θα μπορούσε να μου απαντήσει. Φαντάζομαι πως αυτές οι ερωτήσεις μαζεύονται σαν σύννεφα που προμηνύουν καταιγίδα πάνω από όλους τους γά- RkJQdWJsaXNoZXIy MTY1MTE= G I L L I A N F L Y N N 14 μους: Τι σκέφτεσαι; Τι νιώθεις; Ποιος είσαι; Τι κάναμε ο ένας στον άλλον; Τι θα κάνουμε ο ένας στον άλλον; Τα μάτια μου άνοιξαν απότομα στις έξι π.μ. ακριβώς – χωρίς να τρεμοπαίξω τις βλεφαρίδες, χωρίς να τα ανοιγοκλείσω προσπαθώντας να συνειδητοποιήσω πού βρισκόμουν.

Sometimes a kind of glory lights up the mind of a man. It happens to nearly everyone. You can feel it growing or preparing like a fuse burning toward dynamite. It is a feeling in the stomach, a delight of the nerves, of the forearms. The skin tastes the air, and every deep-drawn breath is sweet. Its beginning has the pleasure of a great stretching yawn; it flashes in the brain and the whole world glows outside your eyes. A man may have lived all his life in the gray, and the land and trees of him dark and somber. The events, even the important ones, may have trooped by faceless and pale. And then — the glory — so that a cricket song sweetens the ears, the smell of the earth rises chanting to his nose, and dappling light under a tree blesses his eyes.

“Put that gun down,” Rafter ordered from the doorway, and a split second later another shot rang through the reception area, a shot that went into the ceiling somewhere well above Rafter’s head and reduced him to a mere mortal. Turning the gun back to me, he nodded, and I complied, entering the conference room behind Rafter. The last thing I saw on the outside was Madam Devier shaking at her desk, terror-stricken, headset around her neck, high heels parked neatly next to her wastebasket.

The problem with books is that they end. They seduce you. They spread their legs to you and pull you inside. And you go deep and leave your possessions and your ties to the world at the door and you like it inside and you don’t want for your possessions or your ties and then, the book evaporates.

The following day, she lay in bed in a private room at the hospital. The police questioned her in the presence of her lawyer. Alicia remained silent throughout the interview. Her lips were pale, bloodless; they fluttered occasionally but formed no words, made no sounds. She answered no questions. She could not, would not, speak. Nor did she speak when charged with Gabriel’s murder. She remained silent when she was placed under arrest, refusing to deny her guilt or confess it.

There was music from my neighbour’s house through the summer nights. In his blue gardens men and girls came and went like moths among the whisperings and the champagne and the stars. At high tide in the afternoon I watched his guests diving from the tower of his raft, or taking the sun on the hot sand of his beach while his two motorboats slit the waters of the Sound, drawing aquaplanes over cataracts of foam. On weekends his Rolls-Royce became an omnibus, bearing parties to and from the city between nine in the morning and long past midnight, while his station wagon scampered like a brisk yellow bug to meet all trains. And on Mondays eight servants, including an extra gardener, toiled all day with mops and scrubbing-brushes and hammers and garden-shears, repairing the ravages of the night before.